Life Happens, How do I deal......
Not too good apparently. Considering the breakdown I had last night. Where did it come from...out of the blue.....surprised me. I thought I had everything under control. Did you catch the "I" part? I'm thinking that's where it all went wrong. Instead of leaving it at Jesus' feet, I swallow it and swallow it until, boom, I've exploded. Why? Why do I do that? I say I'm not going to do that...and yet...here I go and do it again.
Don't read things into this....no life threatening illnesses....just everyday stuff, for lack of a better word. It's just stuff. I'm a type A personality...at least the tests say so...anyway....I worry. Reckon that has anything to do with my warts? Just asking. I'm a worrier! Why? The Bible tells me not to. It's a sin. Yet, I lay awake at night trying to fix everything. Why? I'm human. Not good enough excuse. Come on I can do better than that. I'm not leaving it at Jesus feet. I'm not trusting Him enough. I'm not accepting His sufficient grace, that says, "Carrie, why worry, I've got it all under control." Okay, so I know these things...yet I still worry.
Do my husband and boys deserve these meltdowns?....no. Did I need to have one?...yes...or bust. Could this have been prevented...yes/no. Yes God can. No I did not let Him.
I don't want to tell you what set it off....it's no biggy really.....just typical of raising boys. Sometimes it's just the little things that get to you. They just creep up from out of the blue and get ya.
Am I alone here? Does anybody beside me, have these episodes:)
Is it just women? Hubby thinks so:) lol!!!!!!!!!!! No, really, I can remember my Mom having these. But geeze louise...she had four kids....I'm thinking they were justifiable! With two kids...it should be a breeze for me. Right? Maybe not...because every body's situation is unique no matter if you have none or 20. Little extreme on the comparison, but you catch my drift.
I summarize as this: Life Happens....Deal With It! Preferably with God being the One we cast our cares upon!
For those of you who are still with me...thanks...and may I ask you to pray for these things:
1) Mom and my aunt are faced with Hospice for my MawMaw.
I love you all and I thank you for your prayers and support.