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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Life Happens, How do I deal......

Not too good apparently. Considering the breakdown I had last night. Where did it come from...out of the blue.....surprised me. I thought I had everything under control. Did you catch the "I" part? I'm thinking that's where it all went wrong. Instead of leaving it at Jesus' feet, I swallow it and swallow it until, boom, I've exploded. Why? Why do I do that? I say I'm not going to do that...and yet...here I go and do it again.

Don't read things into this....no life threatening illnesses....just everyday stuff, for lack of a better word. It's just stuff. I'm a type A personality...at least the tests say so...anyway....I worry. Reckon that has anything to do with my warts? Just asking. I'm a worrier! Why? The Bible tells me not to. It's a sin. Yet, I lay awake at night trying to fix everything. Why? I'm human. Not good enough excuse. Come on I can do better than that. I'm not leaving it at Jesus feet. I'm not trusting Him enough. I'm not accepting His sufficient grace, that says, "Carrie, why worry, I've got it all under control." Okay, so I know these things...yet I still worry.

Do my husband and boys deserve these meltdowns?....no. Did I need to have one?...yes...or bust. Could this have been prevented...yes/no. Yes God can. No I did not let Him.

Life Happens.

I don't want to tell you what set it off....it's no biggy really.....just typical of raising boys. Sometimes it's just the little things that get to you. They just creep up from out of the blue and get ya.

Am I alone here? Does anybody beside me, have these episodes:)

Is it just women? Hubby thinks so:) lol!!!!!!!!!!! No, really, I can remember my Mom having these. But geeze louise...she had four kids....I'm thinking they were justifiable! With two kids...it should be a breeze for me. Right? Maybe not...because every body's situation is unique no matter if you have none or 20. Little extreme on the comparison, but you catch my drift.

I summarize as this: Life Happens....Deal With It! Preferably with God being the One we cast our cares upon!

For those of you who are still with me...thanks...and may I ask you to pray for these things:

1) Mom and my aunt are faced with Hospice for my MawMaw.

2) Unspoken.

I love you all and I thank you for your prayers and support.

Carrie

7 comments:

sharon said...

Talk to your gyno, sleep problems go together with hormone imbalance. Go get the book When Your Hormones Go Haywire. You survived your mothers melt downs and your children will survive yours. Just ask my children. They survived
Love ya

Deb said...

I was going to say the same thing about hormones. I had an "episode" this week and went off on the men in my house! And yes, they always blame it on PMS, nothing ever being their fault! LOL!! And your boys will survive, mine have!

Carrie said...

Keep 'em coming girls....hubby needs to see I'm not the only one:)

Lisa @ The Preacher's Wife said...

You mean meltdowns aren't normal? Please don't anyone tell Luke. Or my kids.

What's the name of that book again??

Deedra said...

Me too! My question is "is it normal to have them every single day?"

Cheryl said...

I had a meltdown a few weeks ago myself. I did not scream (just raised my voice a little) or break anything but I did cry and pull the "I am such a terrible Mom" story on Ross. When he does something stupid, I take the blame for not being the kind of Mom I should have been. Yes, the roof stayed on the house but if someone was looking closely they may have seen a few windows blow out!! Hang in there, it does get worse.hahaha J/K

Jenny said...

Oh Carrie,I thought you were the picture of a Saint!. . .LOL! Meltdowns are required ever now and then. Maybe instead of looking at them as meltdowns, we should look at them as God Stops. You know the kind of thing that when we get through acting the way we were then He finally has our attention b/c we are so desperate and have no other place to turn to? Whats that the Bible says about lean not unto thine own understanding, but its the part right before that we tend to forget. . . Trust in the LORD with ALL thine heart(Proverbs 3:5) Which goes back to your worry problem! Sorry this was so long! Hope you have a great day! Love ya!